Tonight in sending off materials to the publisher, I realized the book will soon be born. Although soberly thankful to tell our story, I cannot help but wonder what I would have been doing differently tonight if the tragedy had never occurred.
I suspect if it had never happened, I would have a different mindset. Would I be closely attuned to the suffering of people and their families? Would I continue to settle for shallow relationships? Would I have pat answers for troubled people? Would I be more concerned about what people thought of me, fearing to be candid? Would I even have written a book with its goal to encourage others facing tough tragedies.
I am definitely not the same person I was 3 1/2 years ago but neither are the rest of us closely tied to Elaine and her suffering. When you have truly endured a dark night, your soul no longer cares how it can adapt to the ways of the world. It begs the Creator for help and mercy in time of need, gladly receiving His comfort.